我就是这样的女生

这世界里，大多数的人都想当老板，拥有自己的事业，达成自己的梦想！可是，看看那人有没有机会和资金！但是，少数人会像我这样，不想当老板的！爸爸听到我这么说，在叹气～对他们而言，当老板才有出息的一天～我的性格呢，不喜欢做决定，不喜欢控制别人，还有比较喜欢当幕后的～原因有几个吧！一，我不喜欢或不可以在陌生人面前那么热情，那么爱说话的！二，我不想因为为了当幕前或工作的需要，而改变了我自己！三，还有很多东西要克服，譬如压力，镜头，还有很多，一时想不起！我就是这样的女生！xD

The Sims 3

最近，我好像发了疯似的，拼命玩游戏，那种电脑游戏~可能这个月玩的，远远超过我这十年玩的~=）这好像又有点夸张！由于姐姐的电脑有The Sims 3，所以我就玩咯～很久没有完这一个游戏了～开始时，要时间习惯！慢慢的，还觉得蛮不错！多一下子，有一点闷，但是还是继续玩！由于突然想要建屋子，就卖完全部东西，然后再建！建到一半，发现好像不够钱～就问姐姐怎样ｃｈｅａｔ咯！之前，姐姐一直要帮我ｃｈｅａｔ，但是我坚持不要！ｃｈｅａｔ后，更不想玩了～太多钱了！！！感觉上，我要做什么都可以～可是这样都不好玩了！而且，在玩着时，我想到了一些东西～在游戏里，我在控制里面的人物，而，在我们的人生里，我们是否也被别人操控着呢？感觉好像不太好，一直控制别人！

Feelings

I feel something different during this trip. I do not really know how to describe this unusual feeling, however, it is a good feeling. It may be due to different perception of my life. I just feel happy all the time. I am glad that I have a good family, of course!

well, i just do what i wanted to do without caring other people's thoughts. of course i am not doing bad things, just be myself. i know, In Malaysia, I cant do that . although i seriously do not like western food, i still like to go UK for my studies. Now, I am learning how to live in a western country! So, I must know how to cook. Otherwise, i would die of eating too much western foods!

Just chatted with one of my friends. I changed my view towards her. She told me that she walked 3 hours to Crown tower in Melbourne just to watch the night fire. She did not want to take the train because she wanted to feel the city! Wow, that's amazing, isn't it? She makes me feel like really want to become a bag packer although she is not one of them. I know that this wouldn't happen if I am going with my family!

melbourne + Cairns Trip

在打着这篇网志时，我还在澳洲的酒店！有机会去澳洲，我就觉得很开心，很幸福了！看到姐姐，当然更爽了！虽然暂时，我还是在生病！但是，很多人照顾我！=）天气很干，又不够水，所以有点辛苦~但是现在买了很多水和药，所以比较好了！

海边可能有jellyfish，所以最好不要踏入海水里！是有点美中不足！呵呵，但没关系！看了很多景色，蛮不错的！最让我轻松快乐的是，觉得很自由！哈哈！去一个没有人认识的地方，感觉很好！不用顾虑或想太多！

两年前，也是去澳洲，可是，心里一直挂念着一些人和事物，所以有点辛苦因为一直想回去！可是，现在没什么东西挂心，所以也比较轻松自在！

我很怕吃西餐了，今天我们大力反抗，终于有中餐吃，真得很开心！=） 觉得很舒服！我很明白了解到我不喜欢吃西餐！很久之前就知道了！呵呵！

在这个旅程当中，一直在搭飞机~呵呵~~接下来的日子，就要好好的买东西了！！！xD

心声

现在这个时候，正是选择自己飞的方向了，就是以后的大学！很明显的，和习惯了，我家人都不赞成我读的科目，但是我不会改变了，因为我选什么，他们都不喜欢！真的很习惯了！不是抱怨，可是这是事实！但庆幸的是，我还是可以读书啦！他们也有表达不想我去那么远读书的心声，不是我叛逆，但是很久之前他们都知道了，可是现在突然这样，真的太迟了！我明白他们的担心，他们担心我不会照顾自己，也不知道有没有跟我一起去！反而，我不是很担心！这样，我更想去了！

我真的很期待过这走路，搭巴士，骑脚车这样的生活！我知道我在这里不可能可以这样！每次都要拜托别人载我，而且自己不喜欢驾车！真的有点厌倦了！在那里，至少我可以靠自己，无论是多么的辛苦，但我愿意啊！ 至少我不会觉得我很没用，常常靠别人，自己什么都不会做！虽然我还蛮没有用的，哈哈！有时，辛苦会让我有满足感！有时候，我想去一个没人认识我的地方！好像古装片的感觉！虽然一个人会寂寞，但这是一个不同的经验嘛！=）

a good day????

Today I skipped class and went to play badminton! I think a lot of people would be surprised because this is the 1st time i skip class! I think a lot of people thought that i wouldnt do so. We need to rest!!!!After AS exam!!!!!!

Long time i didnt play badminton. Everytime my classmate asks me to go, I have something to do. Since most of our classmates skip, I skip as well. And, my skills deteriorate a lot!damn a lot! I feel really not like me! Not only badminton, ping pong as well. I am wondering why. Is it because my eye sight problem or my judegement?? Or, maybe it is the sign of not exercising for long time??

However, now is juz few months didnt play! Last time is like didnt play for years, then play back still not as bad as now!!! sigh...

When i was playing badminton, I thought a lot! well, maybe i have to get used to the environment! And, I always day dream, just like my brother!!!YErrrr...I dont want to be like him!!! xD But, I feel good when i m thinking a lot!!! =) What a thinker!!!!

如果你的朋友生肖是猴的請好好珍惜

屬猴的人性格很奇怪，有時候超愛說話，有時候可以一天不說話，高興的時候，會拼命的說話，不高興的時候，一句話也不說。 屬猴的人不愛記仇，但誰對他好誰對他不好，他還是記得很清楚的。
屬猴的把真實的自己藏於半夜的寂靜和午夜明朗的笑聲中。
屬猴的最注重的就是安全感。希望被保護，卻常常是一個人。
屬猴的不容易愛上一個人，但一旦愛上便很難自拔。一旦受傷，總是被傷的很深，只有幾個貼心朋友。

屬猴的是個很愛撒嬌的孩子、 屬猴的喜歡海，喜歡顧影自憐。喜歡自己舔傷口。
屬猴的性格很古怪而又孤僻，他們會突然在大笑中沈默，感覺悲傷。
屬猴的心裏想什麼從來不說，別人也猜不到。
屬猴的嘴上說不在乎、心裏卻早已悲涼、心裏的那把火早已熄滅 。

屬猴的選擇了沈默、不在像以前那樣摯熱的去追求某樣東西 。
屬猴的總是很愛回憶、回憶以前的點點滴滴、以前的大小事只是默默的想著。
屬猴的座的人天生敏銳，與生具備的第六感，對人的內心有超乎尋常的洞察力。但他們會把這些東西放在心裏，他可以把你的眼神、內心看得很清楚，但卻不會告訴你，他用旁觀的態度判定虛偽。
屬猴的座的人不懂甜言蜜語，不屑拍馬屁 。
屬猴的座的人本能的排斥虛偽和做作的人 。

屬猴的人不會真的發火，就算生氣，也很快忘記！
屬猴的人只對真正懂他的人，展示他的創造性，他的情緒他變得冷淡就證明他開始對你重新審視，當他越是沈默，就代表他越是生氣 。
屬猴的人可能看起來很凶，其實內心是最柔軟的 。
屬猴的人看起來很冷淡，但那只是保護自己的方法 。
屬猴的人很重視友情，但被傷害後絕對不再友善 。

屬猴的人很容易被感動，但感動中又保有理智 。
屬猴的人可能看起來很堅強，其實是最脆弱的 。
屬猴的人可能很愛哭，但他的哭並不代表認輸 。
屬猴的人可能看起來很笨，其實大智若愚 。

屬猴的人可能做事很毛躁，但內心很細心 。
屬猴的人天生敏感和細膩，卻會用心鑒定 。

屬猴的懦弱，受了傷之後，只知道躲在無人的地方獨自哭泣 。

屬猴的虛偽，明明已經心痛到無法呼吸，還要在最愛的他面前假裝堅強；不輕易讓任何人走進他自己獨自的世界

屬猴的笑容，無論開心或者悲傷，都是一臉笑容，笑容，是他們偽裝自己最好的武器，

屬猴的眼淚，從不輕易讓人看見，他的淚，從來只有她知道，只是，誰又知道，在他們的笑臉背後，埋藏的是深深的悲傷，笑的越開心，傷的越深 。

屬猴的退縮，屬猴的，永遠不會輕易說愛或者喜歡，除非真的喜歡到了極點，否則，要他們表白幾乎不可能，但是，一旦表白，就是不遺餘力的付出，即使知道這樣做換來的結果可能是深深的傷害…

屬猴的，永遠只可能做同一件事兩次，表白也一樣，同一個人，只可能聽到他們向你最深的表白兩次，兩次之後，就是絕對的安靜了…即使仍然深愛著，他們也沒有勇氣再說第三遍我愛你…他們的退縮，不能重複一件事第三次 。

屬猴的愚蠢，不懂的怎麼挽回深愛的人的心，只能自己心中默默的祝福和祈禱。

受了傷的 屬猴的，只會在角落獨自忍受錐心的痛。

屬猴的：體貼第一名，愛吃第一名，愛家第一名，孝順第一名，多愁善感第一名。

如果你愛上 屬猴…請你疼愛生肖猴。。。哈哈。。。

potential??

Today is Deepavali. I went to visit my Indian neighbour. I know they sure ask me something about pharmacy! Luckily my sister helped me to answer, and u know my answer is short and boring. They said that i will be a good doctor because i am kind-hearted. Well, I am wondering why so many people, almost most of them said I will be a good doctor. kind-hearted..well,maybe..but not most of the time!!! Kind-hearted but indecisive..xD

I am so not determined, easily influenced by others. I am thinking whether i have more potential than what i expect. hmm....

给自己的话

其实人的思想有时可以很复杂！人的情绪变动也可以很快，世界发生的事情更加快！人生也许就是这样无常！

觉得自己好奇怪！有些事，明明就是小事，可是就装神秘，都不懂搞什么的，可是这就是我！我觉得这样感觉比较好！我希望成功了才公布吧，因为很多时候我说很多，可是做不到！ 奇怪也可以成为个人的特别之处~ 有时，我就沉默到只点头或说o，或ok！有时就说到不可停口！有时也是看人的吧！不够好的表达能力所致吧！

封口，收在心里，也许是我的习惯吧！蛮不好又辛苦的一种习惯！好像小猪所言，关心也在心里！看到selina出事，心也很痛，对我影响还蛮大的！什么事都会发生的！让我更坦然地面对一切了！不要想那么多，活在当下!

I was so moody just now. Wondering how i recovered from that? By doing chemistry past year papers and watching videos about Hebe. Wow, her voice brighten up my day! =)

moody..i don't know why i m so moody now! Maybe I stress too much on myself! I should rest? The problem is I do not have time now,having finals! I am lost, really lost in my studies. That may be the one of the consequences studying A Levels. I am dai sei,really! So lazy during holiday~ now have to do all things at one time, of course stressful!sigh.. I should be optimistic, few more days to go!!!!!!Gambateh!!!

Hebe < Close To You> Unplugged

Time flies. One week is not long. I didn't really study, sad! i still wake up at ten o'clock. sigh...Something is wrong!

When i was having exam, I always told myself i gonna read something that is related to my interest. However it never works. I think it is really a big problem for me.Action should speaks louder than words. Why can't I do it? Always wait until last minute and I feel stressful.

Insomnia

I used to be a bad thinker. I think too much during sleeping, having exam or maybe relationship between friends or anyone! Well, I can't sleep right now! I was so tired. Nevertheless I think too much until i can't sleep! This is so bad! sigh!!! I have lots of worries! WHat can I do??? I just feel like blogging and studying! Is is because I think too much about evidence for Thinking Skills subject???hmmm.....

happiness and lifestyle

How would u define happiness? Well, this is abstract! Happiness is a feeling that you are satisfied with your life. U have to be grateful and appreciate what u have right now! Everything comes or happens for a reason! Instead of blaming it, just accept it and you will be happy! Do not demand too much as well!

hmm..I am a person that tend to live in the past! I guess this is not a good way because it only hurts myself as well as the people around me! Actually i realised it for a few times but i m just repeating my mistake. sigh~~~i should not behave like this. Although something or some chances that lost by your hand would not come again, we should appreciate every single chance in the present and future. Regreting is too late and useless. 

I am satisfied with my life right now. Although i m having exam, I am happy as well. My daily routine is studying, singing, watching tv and learning something. Sometimes doing a lot of things at the same time would be suffering. However, the outcome would be satisfied or wonderful! Then, that's worth it! Previously I was trying to get out from the busy and multi-tasking life and i wanted to relax. Still, it doesn't work perfectly. Well, maybe this is my lifestyle. I think i have wasted some holidays and now I should work hard and live the life to the fullest!

Thinking Skills

hey..long time didnt update because my life still normal..no change!
after exam holiday now exam again...sigh!still not fully recharged yet but better than the previous holiday!=)

One more week to exam but i m still like dun really studying right now! I hope my body could be stronger so i can burn midnight oil to study!I was thinking to go home earlier but my favourite chemistry class is still on,so no choice! I feel energetic after that!=) a lot of ppl think that i m weird because i like chemistry so much and feel energetic after the class! Maybe i am a bit slow, but during chemistry class, my teacher told me that no thinking skills after the AS exam! I am like hooraying.at the same time,i tell myself that i have to do better because this is the last time i sit for thinking skills' exam,its like what i thought when i was sitting for SPM! Well, i guess a lot of people would be damn happy because no TKS anymore.

However, I personally think that it is not a bad subject. Some of you might think that it is useless, but I triggers my mind to analyse something in a wider picture and think critically!Although i get low marks for this subject!But i will do my best larr..no time so focus on chemistry more!I feel sorry so i promised myself to do my best!

尊师重道是多么的重要啊！很感谢大家！

SHE

SHE 这一个熟悉的名字，大家不会忘记的！我八年前曾经很爱的一个团体！这几年，当然啦，变心了~可是最近又很爱他们的歌，还有hebe的歌！其实我蛮开心的，我终于喜欢hebe了！以前，我喜欢他们的时候，开始是喜欢selina，然后我想说试试看喜欢他们三个，可是就是对hebe不行！也许她比较少说话之类的吧，自从我看了爱的三温暖那本书后，我对hebe改观了！现在我三个都喜欢了！hebe的新歌虽然没有大家所期待的那么大器的歌，可能有部分的人失望，因为期待了那么久，可是我觉得没关系的！也许她想告诉我们一些关于她的事情或她的性格~超爱她的歌，不复杂而且有意思的歌！适合我的口味~=）我还蛮喜欢有性格的歌手！

Medic Camp

I went for medic camp at Lakeside Campus. When i first adapted to new environment i don't talk,seriously.That is why my first impression is always cool and quiet.The first half i feel like boring (maybe).I havent switched on my active mode. I was very hungry but no vegetarian food! Luckily the second half is more about pharmacy,so i like it!=) Although Pharmacy might be boring (compared 2 medicine) for someone,i think that suits me because i like it and i am a boring person.=) Hope that next time the camp is more fun and can learn more! =) A great experience!

ego

i did not expect or realise that my ego would be that strong! I know it doesnt happen as what i think.However, my ego affects the way that i think. I know it is wrong to think in that way..sigh...

Actually i m not fully recovered.The root of the problem is my ego.

方向！

人家说，最危险的地方是最安全的，相同的，最安全的地方是最危险的！意思说，在做事上，最安全的方法是最危险的？我却在迷失方向的时候找回方向！=）

最近，我觉得我的生活看似充实,但觉得好像欠缺了什么似的！
有一天，我看星光的广告，看回以前的片段，我竟然哭了起来！
今天，我听他们唱歌，虽然不是最完美，可是始终还有感动在！听着听着，我想回我以前看星光，每一集都看的那些日子！我才惊觉，原来星光在我生活也蛮重要的~星光不止让爱唱歌的人圆他们的明星梦！而且每当想放弃理想的我看了都会找回那股冲劲~
原来唱歌是我生命中那么重要的一部份！虽然有时会浪费时间去听歌，唱歌，没能做到每一个时候都在读书，可是我觉得这样我的生命比较完整！

有时候，负担太重让人迷失自己！即时成绩多好都没有用，因为为了得到那种那么好的成绩而失去了我精彩的生活，的确不值得！

其实，我们在无意中正在改变其他人!

A new life starts from today!! =)

讯息

我该怎么做？其实，说真的，越想就越乱！
这种东西，一次一次的让我失望，让我不想做！
其实，也好啦！我不应该做，只不过有时候会妄想太多，这对自己都不好
也许这是上帝要传达给我的讯息？
应该吧，当作一种成长的过程吧

童话

最近我都看了一些童话故事的卡通片
说真的，发现我真的很没有童真
其实小时候没有怎样看卡通
很多卡通人物，我真的不认识的

童年回忆其实会影响我们成长的过程
所以我想趁这个假期多读童话故事
=）

lonely

sometimes i can become emo quickly. i feel my holiday is a bit weird,i don't know why.maybe because i behave differently? i just feel quite lonely during my holiday.

human is weird.my brother wasnt at home these few days. nobody disturb me and i feel lonely.or maybe i dont have something special to do during holiday.sometimes life would be boring if we do the same thing everyday.I need new thing to excite me!

holiday time

today, i went to lot 10 and bought quite a lot of shirts (for me).Feel like changing style.it is bored to wear the same shirt again and again!any suggestion as in change to what style?

It seems like part of my holiday plans are gone, because i am going to use part of my time to work during holiday!just wanna help them out!earn money can do more charity or buy more shirts~~hehe~~~

simple life.

is this blog template lively? i want to be as lively as my blog template. Don't want to emo like what i've used to be.

we should enjoy our life and live happily! of course, we still have obstacles in our life, just face it and live happily!dont think too much..=)

smile more.be happy.

simple=happy FOR ME!

brand new life

i didn't change my blog template for a really long time! After being complaint that my blog is dead + have time and mood, so i change it! =)

everytime i change,i change the whole thing!previous posts all gone!hehe..maybe this is my bad habit. When I want to start something new,i will delete all the previous one.=)
 
sometimes i think back of my past. i changed from a small little girl to a collge girl.it is awesome! i changed damn a lot,it is so unbelievable@@

my semester exam just finished.now is my holiday.i must take my time to rest,play,and do whataver i want to do.hehe,and i want to trigger my mind again to think those philosophy thingy.long time didnt do that..philospphy becomes part of my life..i want to be a thinker (for philosophy) last time i think too much, i think i can control myself now.

i feel so different in college!especially holiday..last time during holiday,i just think about the band stuff and study only!now i think about gathering, shopping, driving, ielts and a lot..=)

time to do computer stuff!enjoy holiday ya,everyone!